Nearly called this blog entry 'Not for the faint hearted'.
It seems to be getting harder all the time. Have gone through every possible emotion virtually on an hourly basis. Everything now is 'the last one' or saying goodbye and I am feeling like a bit of a train wreck.
Part of me wants to wish it all away, wish everything back to how it was before and to carry on our lives - but I know from the minute you get this silly idea in your head to start a new life 10,000 miles away, things will never be the same again. We had nice lives, plenty of financial security and a lovely house - and we're trading it all in... for what? We don't know. There have been a few times recently when we've turned to each other and gone 'What the hell are we doing?'
Charlie had an early birthday party yesterday with a few of her girl friends and was in tears afterwards knowing she's going to miss them. What with the parents making me feel guilty - now the children joining in. It's all going so well. Not.
So, 'not for the faint hearted' - to anyone starting this process be warned, it just gets harder and harder and however tough you think you are - think again.