I have lost all the excitement now and just feel really drained with all the emotion in saying goodbye to friends and relatives. We have a party on Saturday for the boys and their friends and people who we have made friends with through the boys. They are really excited about it, i have suggested they go and i'll stay at home. I just know it will be very emotional and i don't want it to be as i am useless with controlling my emotions. I guess this is all part of the process and i will be glad when this stage is done and we move on to the next. On a brighter note christmas is coming and i am going to make sure it is a good one for us all, hope it is a white one. Wishing you all a happy christmas and an even better new year. Andrea.